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Post Traumatic Stress
Disorder -
Dachau
I don’t have those dreams so
often
It is no longer always with me
When I retire to bed or arise
It is still a part of my being
My most entrenched and vivid experience
It went with death, but returned like Lazarus
That is the quintessence
As difficult to believe as it is absurd
The terror
Torture
Hunger
Lice
Diseases and illness
Executions and hangings
The atrocities fade and blur
But that experience
Superposition of death on living repeats itself
Even today
A small prompt
Nothing is really amiss
Reality slides
Fades
Surroundings become as lifeless as I feel
It doesn’t last long
A fleeting moment
I slip back to present reality
What remains are memories
Associations
The assignment of labour
Work gangs and teams
The falling in, the roll call
The tourment
A kick from a foreman
The chilling stare of a prison guard
Someone is dead
Striped scarecrows shuffle by
The corpse is no longer someone But something
Each of the incarcerated
Understands the other implicitly
About the Aggressor
About saints and sinners
About heroes and cowards
The shrewd and the clumsy
Cliques and loners
Every day the progression of those who gave up
Dehumanized
Brutalized
Submission
Death
The food
The little morsel each rationing
The piece of potato
It was all you live for
Of all instincts self preservation is the greatest
The lightheadedness of Liberation
More than two generations ago
We thought we were rid of
Racism
Persecution
Greed
War, hunger, terror....
Yes, we believed that for a time
But it wasn’t so
Not then, not now
It makes no difference for so many
Whether I speak of Dachau
Or of our world today
Don’t you agree?
Or is there so much to which you are blind?
It is for those who cannot speak out from their plight
And for those who cannot acknowledge them
I stand witness

Composed by:
Albertus Klaassen,
Former and unfortunaly to a lifetime,
Prisoner of the inhumane catastrophe known as “Dachau”
(Vught-Dachau-Kaufering)
5598-69077
This composition was inspired and has excerpts of the "Verzamelde Werken deel 111"
of Ed Hoornik.
Perth, Western Australia, 21-02-2007
Albertus Klaassen died on 28 september 2008 in Western Australia, 84
years old. |